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Between Silence and the Self: Rewriting the Soul in a Fragmented World
In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most
Merciful.
There comes a point in every human life where words lose
their meaning. Where the mirror reflects not a face, but a blur. Where the
heart carries questions heavier than answers. This is not depression. It is not
drama. It is a spiritual state many Muslims silently endure—a disconnection not
only from the world but from the self.
Welcome to the age of internal loss.
The Internal Struggle: Lost Within Oneself
You may pray five times a day. You may smile, work, and
engage in conversation. But deep inside, you feel like a traveler in your own
soul. You search for something, but don’t even know what it is. This is the
internal ضياع—a
spiritual and emotional confusion where the heart cannot anchor itself.
Allah says in the Qur’an:
“And be not like those who forgot Allah, so He made them forget themselves.”
(Surah Al-Hashr 59:19)
This verse cuts through the fog like a beam of light.
Forgetting Allah leads to forgetting oneself. It is not merely about missing
prayers. It is about living without purpose, floating in a sea of distractions.
This is the root of internal loss.
Fragmented Identity: The Battle of “Old Me” vs. “New Me”
We are not static beings. With time, pain, and reflection,
we change. But what happens when the “new me” can't fully bury the “old me”?
You carry both within you like two halves at war. One wants to move forward;
the other clings to past versions of yourself that no longer serve you—but
still feel like home.
Islam doesn’t ask us to erase the past. It asks us to repent
from it and learn. The Prophet Muhammad ﷺ said:
“Every son of Adam sins, and the best of those who sin are those who
repent.”
(Tirmidhi)
Repentance (tawbah) is not just an act of regret.
It’s an identity shift. You turn back to Allah
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and, in doing so, you
begin to reassemble your fragmented self into someone whole—someone new, not in
rebellion against the old, but reborn from it.
Psychological Isolation: Surrounded Yet Alone
Even in a crowded room, a person can feel utterly alone.
It's not about social interaction. It's about the absence of understanding.
You speak, but your voice feels lost in translation. You sit among others, but
your soul paces restlessly, untouched.
This is العزلة
النفسية—psychological isolation. It's when even connection feels like
performance. The cure? It starts with remembering that Allah is always near.
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“And We have already created man and know what his soul
whispers to him, and We are closer to him than [his] jugular vein.”
(Surah Qaf 50:16)
This verse is not metaphorical. It is a promise. In moments
when no human understands you, Allah does. In moments when you don’t even
understand yourself, He still sees your heart for what it is.
Memories: A Distorted Mirror
Memories don’t return as they were.
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They come back twisted,
carrying not only facts but feelings—regret, longing, shame. You replay them,
searching for clarity, but find only emotional static.
In Islamic thought, we don’t dwell on the past to relive
it. We reflect on it to redeem it. The Prophet ﷺ did not let his past define him, even when
mocked by Quraysh for his orphanhood or poverty. He stood tall, because his
identity was not in where he came from—but in who he was with: Allah.
The Language of Silence: Screaming Without Sound
Silence isn’t empty. Sometimes it's the loudest cry. You may
sit in sujood, unable to utter a word, but your heart screams for mercy, peace,
or understanding. And Allah hears that silence.
“He knows what is [present] before them and what will be
after them, and they encompass not a thing of His knowledge except for what He
wills.”
(Surah Al-Baqarah 2:255)
Dua does not have to be eloquent. It does not even need
words. Raise your hands, even if your heart is numb. That act alone is a form
of worship. That silence is a prayer. Allah knows the meaning behind it better
than you do.
Language: Freedom and Prison
Language is both a tool and a trap. We write, speak, and
express—but so much remains unsaid. The complexity of the human soul often
exceeds the capacity of vocabulary. You try to explain your pain, and it sounds
smaller than it feels. You try to share your joy, but it comes out flat.
Yet even in this, there’s mercy. Allah knows the
unspoken. And sometimes, the struggle to express is the very thing that refines
your soul. Through poetry, journaling, or Qur’an recitation,
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we begin to reclaim
language—not to impress others, but to understand ourselves.
Life as Erasure and Rewriting
Perhaps the most powerful metaphor is this: life is not a
straight line. It's a process of erasing and rewriting. Just as a writer
drafts and redrafts, so too must we revisit our spiritual manuscripts.
Allah reminds us in the Qur’an:
“Except for those who repent, believe and do righteous
work. For them Allah will replace their evil deeds with good.”
(Surah Al-Furqan 25:70)
This is divine editing. Not only are sins erased—they are
transformed into hasanat, good deeds. Your story is not set in stone.
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Justice and the Power of Redemption]
With sincere effort and guidance, you can rewrite the entire
narrative.
Conclusion: Toward Wholeness
Being lost does not mean you're beyond hope. Feeling
fragmented does not mean you're broken beyond repair. Allah is Al-Jabbar—the
One who mends. Every moment of internal confusion, every tear shed in silence,
every sujood made in numbness is known and accounted for.
In this dunya, we are not meant to feel complete. We are
travelers, and travelers always feel a little bit displaced. But we walk with
purpose, guided by revelation,
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Mahmoud’s Journey From Doubt to Light]
softened by prayer, and anchored in faith.
🌿 Ready to Rebuild from Within?
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📚 Sources of Strength and Reference
This article draws its heart from timeless Islamic teachings
found in the Holy Qur’an and the authentic sayings of Prophet
Muhammad ﷺ.
Key verses like Surah Al-Hashr (59:19), Surah Qaf (50:16), and Surah
Al-Furqan (25:70) serve as foundational guidance for understanding the
inner self through a spiritual lens. Authentic Hadiths, such as those reported
in Tirmidhi, shed light on the power of repentance, self-reconstruction,
and Allah’s mercy.
Additional insights are inspired by classical Islamic
scholarship and contemporary reflections on spiritual psychology in Islam,
helping bridge the emotional and the spiritual in a way that resonates with
today’s believer.
For deeper personal growth, refer to:
- The Qur’an – your eternal guide.
- Riyadh As-Salihin – for daily Hadith reflections.
- Imam Al-Ghazali’s works – for understanding the soul’s journey.
- "30-Day Islamic Self-Development Plan" – for structured, action-based
inner work.
